The delivery truck out on Route 12 had a bad muffler, and every time the driver shifted gears down by the lumber yard, the whole floor under my boots gave a little shudder. I was standing at my kitchen sink peeling Granny Smiths for the freezer when my phone gave that short, sharp buzz that usually meant the feed store was running low on chick starter.
But it wasn’t the feed store. It was Howard’s face, staring right back at me from a glowing screen with his teeth bared in that wide, polished grin he only ever used when the Rotary Club photographer had his lens pointed his way. He was leaning against the fender of a white Mercedes convertible that still had temporary dealer tape tucked into the windshield, and tucked right into his shoulder was Caitlin, the girl from the title office who smelled like vanilla extract and cheap hair spray.
Evelyn was sitting at my enamel-topped table with a paring knife in her hand and half an apple curled in her lap.
She had been sitting there for twenty minutes telling me about the church bazaar committee and how Mrs. Gish insisted on buying discount flour that made the crusts turn gray in the oven. She didn’t look up when my phone buzzed. She just kept her thumb moving across the pale green flesh of the fruit, taking off long, unbroken ribbons of skin that dropped into the ceramic bowl with a soft wet plop.
Howard had tagged her. He had actually gone to the trouble of finding her name in the directory, or maybe he still had her pinned under favorites out of sheer lazy habit, and he tagged her right there in the caption.
Finally choosing happiness. No more dead weight. At seventy-two years old, with a knee replacement that still clicked every time he climbed stairs, he thought he was a character in a movie where the credits roll just as the sun hits the convertible top.
The screen stayed lit for five seconds before it went dark. My hands felt greasy from the apple juice, and I didn’t know whether to lay the phone face down or shove it under the dish towel so Evelyn wouldn’t have to look at his monogrammed cuffs. Howard Cross had lived next door to me for twenty-four years, and for twenty-four of those years, he had treated his wife like an old piece of farm equipment that you only oil when the noise gets too loud to ignore.
“He told me not to look bitter,” Evelyn said. Her voice didn’t shake. It had that flat, dry sound old well water gets when the pump is running low.
She set the knife down on the white cloth she kept folded by her left hand. She didn’t throw it. She didn’t drop it. She placed it down with the blade pointing away from her, exactly parallel to the edge of the table, the way she used to line up her jars of pickled beets before she put them down in the root cellar. Then she reached into the deep pocket of her cardigan and pulled out her reading glasses, the ones with the piece of yellow masking tape holding the left temple piece onto the plastic rim.
Evelyn Cross had already moved her grandfather’s timberland deeds out of the county safety deposit box three weeks before Howard ever packed his monogrammed garment bag into the back of his Buick. I know this because she asked me to drive her down to the First National basement on a Tuesday afternoon when the rain was coming down sideways and the gutters on Main Street were choked with maple leaves. She didn’t say much on the way down there. She just sat in the passenger seat of my old Ford with her hands folded over her purse like she was waiting for a dentist who was running thirty minutes behind.
“People think because a man has his name on the sign outside the lumber yard, he owns the dirt underneath it too,” she told me back then, her voice small against the hum of the heater. “Howard always was terrible at reading the fine print. He thinks paper is just something you sign so you can go play golf.”
That was the thing about Howard. He thought he was the architect of the whole county, but he couldn’t balance a checkbook without three separate trips to the credit union and a glass of bourbon to steady his nerves. For forty-one years, Evelyn sat at the kitchen table every Monday night with a green ledger and a sharpened Dixon Ticonderoga pencil while Howard sat in the front room watching the game with the sound turned up just enough to rattle the china in the cabinet. She was the one who signed off on the truck leases when the timber market dipped in ninety-four. She was the one who told the bank manager in Hayward that they could stretch the mortgage over twenty years instead of fifteen so they didn’t have to sell the south pasture.
When Howard moved out in June, he took two suitcases, his golf clubs, and his grandmother’s Seth Thomas clock, leaving behind seventy-four boxes of Christmas decorations and a pile of past-due invoices from the quarry that he hadn’t opened because they gave him a headache. He told the men down at the hardware store that Evelyn had gotten difficult in her old age. He told them she didn’t understand modern commerce. He said she was living in the past because she still used carbon paper for the tenant receipts on the duplexes they owned down by the creek.
“He’s at the courthouse,” I said, stupidly, staring down at my phone where the little heart icons were already starting to blink like red beetles. “Look at the time stamp. That was ten minutes ago.”
Evelyn didn’t look at the screen. She had her handbag open on her knees, the heavy brown leather one with the brass clasp that her uncle had brought back from Germany after the war. She rummaged around inside it for a second, past the peppermint drops and the small plastic comb with half its teeth missing, until her fingers found what they were looking for. It wasn’t a tissue. It was a small leather-bound checkbook holder from First Farmers Bank, the kind they give you when you open a commercial account before they started charging four dollars a month for the paper statements.
She didn’t rush. A woman who has spent forty years waiting for a man to come home from the tavern does not rush for anything, least of all a man standing in a courthouse parking lot with a blonde girl who looked like she spent more on shampoo in a month than Evelyn spent on firewood.
“The girl works in title,” Evelyn said, her thumb tracing the gold lettering on the leather cover. “Caitlin. That’s her name. Her daddy used to have the gravel pit out past the interstate until the bank took it back during the second term of the Bush administration. She likes things that shine.”
She opened the checkbook case and pulled out a folded slip of blue carbon paper, the kind they use when you write out a counter check at the branch office downtown. It had three lines of handwriting on it in Evelyn’s neat, sloping hand, the kind of handwriting they taught girls in the basement of St. Jude’s back when the nuns still used rulers on your knuckles if you didn’t keep your wrist high.
“What are you doing, Ev?” I asked. My throat felt tight, like I’d swallowed a piece of apple skin sideways.
“I’m calling Denise,” she said.
She picked up my black landline receiver from the wall hook, the one with the ten-foot cord that let me reach the stove while I was talking to my sister in La Crosse. She didn’t use her cell phone. She didn’t trust anything that didn’t have a physical wire running straight down into the baseboard where the mice couldn’t chew through it. She dialed the seven digits from memory, the old number she’d been calling since before they put the area code in front of everything.
Denise must have answered on the second ring because Evelyn didn’t wait for a greeting. She just leaned her hip against the edge of my white stove and looked out the window toward her own back porch, where the tomato plants were drooping because nobody had remembered to tie them up to the stakes since the first week of June.
“Denise,” she said. Her voice had dropped down into that low register she used when she was talking to the township supervisor about the ditch drainage near the property line. “It’s Evelyn Cross. I need the operating line on the commercial yard frozen until further notice.”
There was a silence on the other end, long enough for me to hear the refrigerator motor kick in with a dull rattle. I could imagine Denise sitting behind the glass partition at First Farmers, the one with the little bowl of stale peppermints and the calendar from the feed store hanging crooked on the drywall.
“No,” Evelyn said, and this time she didn’t sound like a woman who was eighty years old and lived alone with three cats and a jar of pickled eggs. She sounded like the person who had signed the loan guarantees when the county bridge washed out back in seventy-six. “I don’t need Howard’s signature for that part. You check the second rider on the LLC papers from November twelfth, nineteen-eighty-four. The one where he assigned his interest in the timber lots over to the primary depositor in exchange for the clear title on the home place.”
She listened for a long second, her eyes fixed on a blue jay that was sitting on the top rail of my fence, pecking at an old piece of suet from the winter before.
“Well, you go look in the gray filing cabinet in the basement under ‘C,'” Evelyn said, her voice dropping another half notch until it was almost a whisper. “And while you’re down there, Denise, take a look at the withdrawal slip from last Tuesday morning for twelve thousand four hundred dollars. The one made out to an auto group in Madison for a white convertible. See if that came out of the machinery account or the personal savings.”
She waited. The clock above my stove gave a loud, metallic tick that made me jump. Outside, the delivery truck down on Route 12 shifted into fourth gear, and the sound of the diesel engine rose up through the floorboards like something heavy being dragged across an empty attic floor.
“That’s right,” Evelyn said softly. “It didn’t come from his personal. And since the business line is currently backed by the south forty, which has been in my family since the Cleveland administration, I think you’d better put a hold on any outgoing checks until I can get down there with the binder.”
She didn’t slam the phone down when she was finished. She set it back on the cradle with that same careful, exact precision she’d used with the paring knife, making sure the little plastic plunger went all the way down so the dial tone didn’t leak out into the kitchen.
Then she reached into her bag again, pulled out a small peppermint drop wrapped in cloudy cellophane, and popped it into her cheek. She didn’t look at my phone again. The screen had gone dark anyway, the little red beetle icons fading away into the black glass like they’d never been there at all.
“He always was terrible at paperwork,” she said, smoothing down the front of her gray skirt with both palms. “He thinks if you don’t look at a bill for three months, it turns into a letter from a friend.”
I stood there by the sink with the half-peeled apple still in my hand, the brown juice drying on my thumb in a sticky ring. The kitchen smelled like vinegar and sugar and the cold grease from the Sunday roast I hadn’t finished cleaning up yet.
“Do you want some coffee, Ev?” I asked. It was the only thing I could think of that didn’t sound like I was standing in the middle of a church basement watching someone open a coffin.
“No, Martha,” she said, walking toward the screen door with her bag tucked firmly under her elbow. “I need to go home and finish those apples. The church freezer has to be stocked by Friday, and you know how the women get if the pies aren’t put away before the humidity sets in.”
She went down the back steps one at a time, her heels clicking against the old wooden boards that Howard had promised to replace with pressure-treated pine back when the Reagan administration was still winding down. She didn’t look at the white Mercedes in her mind, and she didn’t look at the courthouse where Howard was probably still standing in the sun trying to figure out why his credit card had just been declined for three coffees and a plate of cinnamon rolls at the diner down the block.
I watched her go through the gap in the hedge where the lilacs had overgrown the fence line. She walked slow, the way people walk when they aren’t running from anything anymore, because they finally know where all the gates are locked.
It was three hours later when the phone rang again. This time it was Howard himself, calling from a number I didn’t recognize, his voice sounding thin and ragged like a piece of tin being rattled in a high wind. He didn’t say hello. He didn’t ask how I was doing or whether I’d seen the pictures he’d posted for the whole world to look at.
“Martha,” he said, and I could hear the background noise of the courthouse lobby behind him, all those heels clicking on the terrazzo floor where the lawyers walked when they wanted to look important. “Is Evelyn over there?”
I looked out my kitchen window toward his side of the hedge. The sun was getting low now, dropping down behind the silos at the end of the valley and turning the sky the color of a greasy tin pail. The back door of his old house was locked, just like it had been since June, and the weeds around the foundation were starting to go to seed in the July heat.
“No, Howard,” I said, holding the receiver tight against my ear so he couldn’t hear the radio playing down low in the corner. “She went home to make pies.”
“She can’t do that,” he said, and I could hear the panic in his voice now, thin and sharp like a saw hitting a nail in an old oak beam. “Denise at the bank is talking about some kind of hold. They won’t let me cash the draft for the plates. They’re telling me the title on the car isn’t clear.”
I didn’t say anything for a second. I looked down at the table where the green apple peels were still sitting in the ceramic bowl, turning brown at the edges where the air had gotten to them.
“Well, Howard,” I said, and my voice sounded a lot steadier than I felt. “You always were terrible at reading the fine print.”
He started to say something else, something about his name on the sign, something about forty years of building up a reputation in a town where everybody knew your grandfather, but I didn’t wait for him to finish. I just laid the receiver down on the oilcloth table, right beside the paring knife, and let the dial tone hum into the empty room until the operator came on to ask if I needed assistance.
I didn’t. I hung it up, picked up the bowl of apples, and carried them over to the sink to wash the brown parts away before the light went entirely out of the valley.